It's the last day of 2013.  Some people are glad.  Some people are indifferent.  Some people are excited.  I guess I'm a part of the indifference.... I admit every year I say, "Next year is my year!"  LOL... And then at the end of the year I'm like what in the H3{[ happened!   This year wasn't a bad year.  I had a lot of breakthroughs, a few setbacks, and a couple of normal moments.  I lost my grandfather.  That was the toughest thing the whole entire year.  He was so amazing.  His greatness still lingers amongst us.  I'm still hurt by it, but each day gets better.... I moved.... Nothing abnormal... Right?!?  No comment... SMH.... I LEFT MY JOB OF 5 1/2 YEARS!!!!!!!!!  That was a step out on faith for real.  I let go of a crutch and it has been a struggle sometimes... But I have felt free from the constraints of being tied down.  I leave just too still work for the same company in the field.  LOL.... But I am Truly helping people and will be educating people on some very important financial things.  I started co hosting a radio show on 88.5 FM and discovered some of the things that I am capable of.... I FELL IN LOVE.  That was amazing! ......  fell in love more with myself... (I can imagine anyone reading this was like, With WHOM!???! Nosey selves! LOL)  I met a gang of new people, especially in the poetry community.  Some are great and I can see longtime friendships with and some not so much and that's cool too.  I lost friendships.  I mourned them and then moved on.  I hosted my first open mic show and now I'm hosting all kinds of stuff.  Another discovery of which God is molding me to be. Then I ended it due to all the stress of doing it alone. Now I can't wait to get back to it and people are looking for it to come back. That's what's up!.... I'm coming out of my shell.....  a work in progress.... So many things have happened that I can't think of everything... But, I grateful.... So no New Year's resolutions.... If there was one, it would be to keep pushing... Keep grinding..... Keep the faith and don't stop believing in GOD and what HE has for me.  Stop second guessing myself that only delays the process. I'll stop getting caught up in the desire to play the background, that's not where I'm supposed to be....  The road ahead of me is full of hard work, not just 2014.  I see so many people doing great things.  I'm glad to be among them.   So, farewell to yet another year as we welcome a new one.  But, I'll continue to move forward... Happy New Year to everyone.... ~ Kiss Kissha!  ;-* Muah!





I remember simpler days that now play the background music to my todays and replace my frowns inversing them upside down to smiles because I'm a product of my experiences... Each instance molding me to the person standing in front of the world. Child longer... That much stronger as the memories play over again and yet again... Making perfect blends of my make up. Stay up in spirits as I hear God's voice whisper the sweetest tunes within the perfect tone & perfect pitch... Distant thoughts of yester years are close enough to touch but too far to reach.. As I let them teach me the things I need...  To Succeed these memories so precious to me.

Soooo.... I went to church this morning and as I'm leaving, I tell my pastor that I'm headed home to get some sleep, because I realize that I have been running almost nonstop since Wednesday.  I get here and of course, I have a whole lot of stuff to do and so I fight the procrastinator in me to go to sleep and do it later.  (Like how I haven't written a blog since when???? Shame on me!) I fight it because, later has arrived.  The tomorrow of yesterday is today!  So, I focus on what it is that I have to accomplish.  It appears to be heavy and sometimes, I find it hard to balance it all.  I don't have a team to help me yet.  But I have a mountain of task to address in order to even think about accomplishing the task needed to achieve the goals. Man that in itself is a mouthful!  Soooo, I think maybe tomorrow I'll have more time or someone to help me.  Maybe tomorrow I'll find someone to help me.  Maybe tomorrow I'll do that thing that I need to get that thing to succeed and I believe that I will be okay... Yeah, Okay?!? So, as challenging as it is.... I will do better.  Not because it's a new year coming, but because God saw fit to renew and then reinvent these dreams with ferocity that will not allow me to stop.  I will do better blogging and promoting.  I will find a worthy assistant.  I will get these things done.  I will NOT wait until tomorrow... I will do more shows.  I will.... I am....  so that I can say I have.

What is it that you are putting off for a better time?  Going to school? Completing a project?  Telling someone how you feel? Etc. Etc. Etc...  Don't leave things that should be done today until tomorrow.  If God gives you the vision, He will give you provision when it's time. So, when that time comes, go for it, it has already been blessed!  I'd love to hear about some of the challenges with procrastination that you have overcome... Be blessed everyone... And do it now!  LOL.....






I am a victim, set to the rhythms of others heartbeats. Set to repeat the same pathways of defeat. Or am I? That's what has been whispered to my spirit since I was old enough to hear it and barely comprehend it, but familiar enough to fear it... So am I the reluctant success and a ball of mess that less than average? Is that me? Am I the mistakes that made me. Am I crazy, am I maybe not good enough for love... Was I ever? What am I? Who? Cluelessly I run through these streets aimlessly almost namelessly screaming... Can anyone hear me and stet me in the right direction... Am I that victim.... Not anymore!


~ Kiss Kissha!