I was sitting at work listening to someone today. She asked a male coworker a question and when responded favorably, questioned it. She said, “ For real. What do you really think?”I sat there in awe of that fact that she couldn’t accept the positive comment… I saw myself in that situation. Some of us are so used to hearing the negative that we automatically condition ourselves for the “blow”. But when the positive comes, we question it. Why do that? That’s not how GOD works. That’s not how we should be; in constant expectation of that negative blow. Granted, I do agree with that saying, Expect the best, but prepare for the worst (or even better, Expect the best, plan for the worst, and prepare to be surprised.), but I know the best is yet to come so I will expect it!Now, I have been that way for a very long and sometimes it’s hard to shake.

I ALWAYS expected the worse, even if it’s in the back of my mind. Sometimes I revert back to that and still do if just for a quick minute. That is one of the most stressful minutes of my life! The good thing is, I’m pushing it further and further to the back of my mind and I’m finding comfort in God. I’m learning to trust him more. I’m getting prepared for the better things as I decide to give better things. If I believed all the negativity I would be stuck in the same position. I see my progress because I see my progression. Although it is tough, it is well worth it. Even on the toughest days, it is well worth it!I have an Open Mic Night that I host on Wednesdays. I’ve only been doing it since the end of February, so it’s still growing. 

Last night, we had one person in there.  (Probably since there was a tropical storm brewing in the gulf)a night, but 3 people came it. We did a show. It was good. As soon as the 3 people were leaving, 4 people came in….  They’ve driven across the bridge to come to the show so…… We had another show.  That was one of the best shows I’ve had so far. It was empowering and impactful.  I was able to push myself to limits I didn’t know I could conquer. And the last crowd was amazing. Last night, I expected the worse and experience one of my best!!!!!!  I’m thankful for that! Keep pushing… things are bound to happen. Just believe in yourself and most importantly your source!(And the person I had at the door said that no one would come! God sent a troupe of good people to share this awesome time with me!)

So that your faith might not rest on men's wisdom, but on God's power. ~ 1 Corinthians 2:5

Be joyful always… That can be hard when there are so many things that seem to be against you! Like, If you do your best, but success is not your result or if you give your all, but nothing seems to be returned! These are challenges that really effect someone’s joy, alter their smile, and effect your stance. Being human, it’s often natural to not feel so joyful in such situation but, you have to pray continually to maintain that joy. You have to tap into your source! Prayer is your tool to being joyful always so that giving thanks in all circumstances will come naturally.I’m not exactly where I would like to be,but I’m not where I was (spiritually or physically)! So I can find joy in that alone. The things that are yet for me to achieve are so powerful and alluring that I can’t help but to find joy in that! Look ahead to GOD’s promise. Look ahead to your destiny! Stress can kill your joy, your dreams, and your drive. Stress can kill you! So why not delight in the joy that is rightfully yours as you pray continually and give thanks always!
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 (NIV)
Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.

I’ll never again say never. However hard it may get. I’ll never forget where I come from. One young dumb woman lost in confusion bamboozled; to think that could be no one. But then the Son, revealed a brilliance that proved Kismet. As I met my best friend and the best man for any position or situation presented. He meant it when He said HIS joy might remain in me because I see past heartache and pain and will not forget the sacrifice that He made or the price that HE paid, as He laid HIS life on the line, to spare mine. I’m obliged to obedience that I’d once lost in the difference. Because I’ve witnessed a love so amazing, that’s engaging as I stand gazing in the heart of truth! ~ Kiss Kissha! ©
2013